The girls love Papa

While we were in Orem this weekend, we went over to see Papa. The girls love him and it was so good to see him!

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Macy's here!

The girls met Macy & Drew today. They immediately loved them.... so cute. K & A can say Macy just fine but S can only do Cici... which isn't surprising since my other sister Alyssa is Sasa. Mace & Drew drove down from Montana for Grandpa's funeral this weekend. Glad to see them. Miss my baby sister like crazy.

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My Sweetie Lucy

My precious dog Lucy died in my arms this morning. She has had a heart murmur for 2 years and I was told then that she wouldn't make it 6 months and she made it 2 years. We loved her so much and it was hard to lose her. It was especially hard to see my husband cry when he told the girls that she won't be waking up. The girls keep asking where she is. They don't understand.

We packed the girls in the car at 8:30 this morning and drove across town to the Animal Shelter where they will perform the cremation. We opted for a private cremation so that someday when we have a house, we can give her a proper burial.

I miss her already. It was strange to come home and not have her right there at the door wagging her tail. She was such a good dog and will always have a place in our hearts.




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Grandpa Merrell

My sweet grandpa Merrell passed away in his sleep last night. He was a great man. One of the sweetest I have ever known.
I will always have regrets when it comes to this situation. I let certain people drive me away from that family after my dad died and it was never the same. That family never treated us the same. They were never my real family again with the exception of my grandparents. They were there for all the main events, came over to my parents house to see us often, always sent cards for birthdays, always supported me. But I had a hard time going to that house and as the years went on, the visits on my part were less and less. I should have done better. I know that he loved me and that is what is important. He always told me that. He always told me he was proud of me. The two things that I miss hearing from my dad, he said often.

What a great reunion- My grandpa, my dad and my Nana in heaven.

Not sure when the funeral will be but I will be going. I owe him that much. He was a great example in my life and he will always be in my heart.


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ZOO!!

We decided that today would be the day to take the girls to the zoo.... Alyssa and Kellen came with us and it was really fun. I don't think I have been that hot in a long time. It was easily 100 degrees outside but it felt like 214 degrees. We rode the train and saw all the animals and the girls were exhausted! It took K & S about 1 minute to fall asleep after they were buckled in :)

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Getting the hang....

I have to give a huge shout out to all the m0thers out there. Being a mom is very hard. Not that I thought it would be easy but it definitely is a lot harder mentally and emotionally than I ever thought.

I have been a mom for a little over a month. I have to say that I was scared for probably the first couple weeks and unsure that I could do it. I am happy to report that I am getting the hang of it and I no longer feel stressed and frustrated all day. I am enjoying it a lot. I am so blessed that these girls were the ones to be able to teach me to be a mother, I learn new things everyday and I know that I am becoming better at it. They are so sweet and I am very lucky.


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